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Jun. 22nd, 2018

fizzy Friday

My name and foot
Etch A Sketch of my name and foot by John Taylor


John and me Etch-A-Sketch-ing at the entrance of Nick Cave: Feat. Photo by Marlow Amick.


Nashvillians, the show closes Sunday at 5:30 p.m. Get your tails over there!

And while you're in the museum... there is a sweet spot in the Gordon Contemporary Arts Gallery, to the left of the intro wall for The Presence of Your Absence Is Everywhere, about six feet back, where the light brings out the everywheres in white letters surrounding the title treatment, which happen to be invisible (absent) if you aren't standing in that spot where the light hits them just so. It is So Very Cool. I love this show so much. Come see it if you live here! (And come to An Evening of Chaos and Awe, too, which will feature music inspired by her work, along with a special dish by Maneet Chauhan.)

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Jun. 17th, 2018

I give thanks to the waves upholding me

[Subject line = quote from Peter Mayer's "Blue Boat Home"]

standing bow

Paddleboarding season is underway (as in, my summer pass at Percy Priest Lake). The gauge hit 96 F yesterday, and I spent most of yesterday's session in the water rather than on it, swimming and floating and enjoying both raindrops and a rainbow. Today's social included a poodle named August, pivot turns, and back flips (not by me, but fun to admire).

Since I won't be back on the water for another 4-6 days, I'd like for a soaker to soften the ground so I'm not fighting the Tennessee clay when I get around to planting the three rosebushes I brought home right before Memorial Day (instead of the straw bales I'd planned to pick up):

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This week's Americans of Conscience checklist includes phone scripts (for speaking to policy-makers against discriminating against people with pre-existing conditions, among other issues, and a five-day Immigration Game Plan) and addresses for card-writers.

This entry was originally posted at https://bronze-ribbons.dreamwidth.org/415015.html. I see comments at DW, IJ, and LJ (when notifications are working, anyway), but not on feeds.

May. 12th, 2018

"Equate rhyme with reason / sun with season"

[Subject line from Saul Williams & DJ Krust's "Coded Language," via Roo's weekend jam at The Salad Bowl]

So, that suitcase I'd crowed about fixing in my last update? When I began unpacking my haul from San Francisco, I discovered that the entire pull for one of the outer pockets was missing.

I suppose I could snick a replacement pull from a shmatte past due for the ragpile, but there are so many things I would get to on the must-do and wanna-do lists before I got around to plying my pliers. I don't expect to fly again until the fall, and when I do, I'll likely just splurge on a roll of fancy duct tape, especially if I see one in the clearance bins at Michael's or Staples in the interim.

Flying was less of an ordeal back in 1998, the year of my first and only previous visit to the city. I stayed with my friend Daniel, in his apartment in the Mission. He showed me the Musée Mécanique, and we also hit the Exploratorium and a Taiwanese restaurant and Kanji by Starlight, an autobiographical show by a Japanese American magician, and he brought soup to me from a Taiwanese joint when a cold knocked me sideways. On my own, I rode cable cars every chance I could and poked around Grace Cathedral and later drew on the memories (while recovering from a cold in Japan, as it happened) when writing "Unspeakable Beauty, the Angels in America fic that was my very first contribution to Yuletide.

Last week's visit was primarily for work -- so, different lodgings, different obligations, different sightseeing options/priorities. (The one constant? Yet another cold. When I grow up I'm going to say no to enough ooh-shinies to get enough sleep so that my immune system has a fighting chance...) I was amused at the range of opinions on the Mission -- some people claimed it hadn't changed, and others said gentrification had taken over. It would have been nice to see for myself, but there wasn't time during most of the trip, and when there was time, I felt too grotty to venture beyond Union Square/SoMa, although I did walk twice to the ballet, and kayak under the Bay Bridge as night was falling:

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There's more to say and show, some other night, and I did come home with notes for poems and posters. And, my friends, even when I was alone, there were reminders of things we may well spin yarns and shanties about (or at least incorporate into a drabble or doodle or ditty) the next time our paths intersect. . .

Bartlett Hall octopus

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"Equate rhyme with reason / sun with season"

[Subject line from Saul Williams & DJ Krust's "Coded Language," via Roo's weekend jam at The Salad Bowl]

So, that suitcase I'd crowed about fixing in my last update? When I began unpacking my haul from San Francisco, I discovered that the entire pull for one of the outer pockets was missing.

I suppose I could snick a replacement pull from a shmatte past due for the ragpile, but there are so many things I would get to on the must-do and wanna-do lists before I got around to plying my pliers. I don't expect to fly again until the fall, and when I do, I'll likely just splurge on a roll of fancy duct tape, especially if I see one in the clearance bins at Michael's or Staples in the interim.

Flying was less of an ordeal back in 1998, the year of my first and only previous visit to the city. I stayed with my friend Daniel, in his apartment in the Mission. He showed me the Musée Mécanique, and we also hit the Exploratorium and a Taiwanese restaurant and Kanji by Starlight, an autobiographical show by a Japanese American magician, and he brought soup to me from a Taiwanese joint when a cold knocked me sideways. On my own, I rode cable cars every chance I could and poked around Grace Cathedral and later drew on the memories (while recovering from a cold in Japan, as it happened) when writing "Unspeakable Beauty, the Angels in America fic that was my very first contribution to Yuletide.

Last week's visit was primarily for work -- so, different lodgings, different obligations, different sightseeing options/priorities. (The one constant? Yet another cold. When I grow up I'm going to say no to enough ooh-shinies to get enough sleep so that my immune system has a fighting chance...) I was amused at the range of opinions on the Mission -- some people claimed it hadn't changed, and others said gentrification had taken over. It would have been nice to see for myself, but there wasn't time during most of the trip, and when there was time, I felt too grotty to venture beyond Union Square/SoMa, although I did walk twice to the ballet, and kayak under the Bay Bridge as night was falling:

DSCN7589

There's more to say and show, some other night, and I did come home with notes for poems and posters. And, my friends, even when I was alone, there were reminders of things we may well spin yarns and shanties about (or at least incorporate into a drabble or doodle or ditty) the next time our paths intersect. . .

Bartlett Hall octopus

This entry was originally posted at https://bronze-ribbons.dreamwidth.org/414971.html. I see comments at DW, IJ, and LJ (when notifications are working, anyway), but not on feeds.

Apr. 29th, 2018

gathering rosebuds while I may

Literally:

gathering rosebuds while I may

I snuck in a few minutes of gardening before night fell -- uprooting some fistfuls of weeds and lopping off the iffier branches of the rosebush. There are tiny purple flowers occupying a corner of the yard, and bright white chickweed (I think) blossoms that close up at night. Alas, the geranium from Desire did not survive the winter, and the the whirlwind anemone isn't showing any signs of life. But, I have plenty of seeds stashed in old jars and shoeboxes and the like. Some are probably as dead as the geranium and the anemone. But some . . .




I had several observations saved for the Plus Ça Change department, but the only one I can lay my hands on at the moment is an endnote in Paul F. Ramírez's forthcoming book, Enlightened Immunity: Mexico's Experiments with Disease Prevention in the Age of Reason. It struck me as rather relevant to the firing of Father Conroy, in tandem with the wake-up call Bill Gates is attempting to sound regarding the "significant probability of a large and lethal modern-day pandemic occurring in our lifetimes":

Rather than lead to systematic, preemptive transformations in social policies by governments, sixteenth-century plagues produced a degree of elation or relief resulting from the connection drawn between disease and the elimination of poverty, commonly achieved through the elimination of the poor. [Brian] Pullan, “Plague and Perceptions of the Poor,” 121.


[rummages through bag] Oh, here's another one, from the April 22 NYT:

PHILIP GALANES: We’re living through a time right now where men in power who’ve done ugly things —

DENZEL WASHINGTON No. We’re not “living through a time right now.” It’s always been this way, from the beginning of time. Pick one: from Caesar to Caligula. Now, it’s just on the news cycle every 15 seconds.


And, today, the nerd prom take that has stayed with me, from Kara Calavera: "This #WHCD set was a career-making moment for @michelleisawolf the same was that @StephenAtHome's was for him [in 2006]. The press's reaction to hers is nearly identical to the reaction they had after his."

This entry was originally posted at https://zirconium.dreamwidth.org/148580.html.

Apr. 28th, 2018

counting joys like trees

Today's subject line is from Eternity, a poem by US poet laureate Tracy K. Smith that she read on Live from Here last weekend. Though what I've been replaying over and over is Gaby Moreno powerhousing through Live from Here's cover of "Techno Cumbia": La technocumbia que te traigo te dará el placer / Para que muevas tu cuerpo, de la cabeza a los pies. . . .

Lord, this month. It was already going to be complicated enough without my car getting burglarized (followed by literally dozens of subpoena calls -- because the sheriff's office uses an automated service that doesn't recognize responses from my mobile phone, and it took multiple calls to his staff to get it to stop, and oh, look, he's running for re-election. Guess whom I'm not impressed by at the moment?) and our largest exhibition having to close five weeks early and one of my car's hubcaps merrily rolling away on I-65 after being liberated by a particularly vicious pothole. Did. Not. Want.

But! the sun is shining today, and there are dozens of buds on my Sky's the Limit rosebush, and the Christmas cacti and kalanchoe are in full bloom, and I have what I need right here at home (specifically puff pastry and jams) to improvise something for a reception later today (following the ordination of my church's assistant pastor, who is moving on to serve as a hospice chaplain). My parents-in-law gave me an early birthday check that I am applying toward lifetime membership in the John Rae Society. I have to power through a ton of work this weekend, but I can do it in supercomfy leggings and ratty shirts. But I also enjoyed dressing up for Keeneland last weekend...

ready for Keeneland

... where I came out ahead on my wagers, thanks to Sundress, High Fashion Star, and Ravish (trifecta) and Smart Response (show)

winning trifecta!

... and my honorary big brother and his partner spoiled me all weekend long. Treats included bourbon, bourbon-laced brownies, brownies, and a brown-butter popcorn sundae ... decadence followed by 8 a.m. hot yoga. It all balances out, right? ;)

Speaking of yoga, Autumn Sky Poetry Daily published Hot Yoga Chaff last month and A Calm, Fixed Mind earlier this week.

Batch 1 of the experimental tarts are out of the oven and, well, they wouldn't win even a second look at a state fair, let alone any ribbons, but I popped a couple into my mouth while cleaning up, and they'll do. Lord knows I love to hit things outta the park, but sometimes it's enough just to be bringing a bit of sweetness and air.

This entry was originally posted at https://zirconium.dreamwidth.org/148225.html.

Mar. 31st, 2018

long swirling clouds of fog

Tonight's subject line comes from the first line of a letter Elizabeth Bishop wrote to Robert Lowell on April 1, 1958. It was actually a sunny day here, but I liked seeing the phrase just now, as well as the pleasure of peeking at a letter written sixty years ago (replete with frustration about a worker stealing apples and singing awful songs, a snotty jab at my beloved Ciardi, and kinder talk of work and mental health, along with paragraphs on babies, birds, books, and cities).

It would have been nice to go singing, shopping, or simply walking/biking around in the sunshine, but my body was tired, my brain fried, and my kitchen filthy, so I put on a nightgown when I rolled out of bed and have spent the day moving slowly between chores and diversions. I wrote a postcard poem and postcards to voters:

postcards

I abandoned my plan of trying a new recipe with the chicken thighs in the fridge; instead, I tossed them into a pot with bay leaves (from my big sister), carrots (that had been in the fridge for weeks), a yam (that had been on the counter for weeks), the dregs of a jar of pasta sauce, and garlic (from Penzeys) and let it all stew for a while. Tomorrow I may add lima beans and an onion, but I may also just let it sit some more, as there will also be two services to sing in and tax paperwork to tend to. Plus I'd like to paint my nails and retouch my hair and sleep for about a week more before heading back to the office. Wishes, horses, la la la.

The timing is not right for me to sign up for The Iteration Project Partner Program, but it sure sounds cool.

This entry was originally posted at https://zirconium.dreamwidth.org/148016.html.

Mar. 27th, 2018

Earth Adored

The subject line comes from a lovely dance by Joseph Pimentel based on a Moravian hymn that he taught yesterday during the closing session of Nashville's Playford weekend. There was also "Candles in the Dark" with Mady from Chicago (who wore jeweled lizards in her ears on Saturday), a fine "Bishop" with Fred from Houston (who wore lizard-printed socks on Sunday), a galloping "Spanish Jigg" with Leonard from DC, whirling around with Will (a transplant to Tennessee who misses his old marshes something fierce) during the last waltz, and other romps and swoops and "luscious" turnings-about, to borrow one of the caller's favorite adjectives.

Earlier this month, there was Dancefest in Durham (that's me in the white sweater and gray skirt), which featured plenty of, ah, learning moments. In one exercise, Kalia Kliban sent everyone in the right file out of the room, taught the dance to everyone in the left file, and then had them attempt to convey the moves nonverbally without any assistance from her. I misread my partner's attempt to communicate "Figure 8" so thoroughly that I bodychecked him, which had him laughing so hard he could barely talk about it afterward. (Later, our waltzing was so over-the-top it had people on the sidelines laughing as they chatted with me later. And that wasn't even my wildest spin around the room that night.) But there was sublime dancing to be enjoyed as well (within those same waltzes as well as within the English figures), and the dance I've spoken of most often since coming home has been Kalia Kliban's "The Flying Sorceress." I was able to put full trust in my partner (Joe from Asheville) during the poussettes, and it in fact felt like flying as we swooped across the room (crossing but not crashing into other lines) and back again and again. Magical!

Honorary Mama passed away a week ago. It was time, so there is plenty of relief amid the feeling bereft. Yesterday I came across both an envelope and a postcard I had pre-stamped and pre-addressed to her back in January and then set aside because some other image or combination of enclosures seemed more fun/compelling those mornings. I shall repurpose them for notes to politicians or the like, in Nancy's memory.

There is a lone yellow tulip in my front yard. When I see it, I say, "You lovely sturdy thing."

This entry was originally posted at https://zirconium.dreamwidth.org/147759.html.

Mar. 3rd, 2018

So it turns out it wasn't me who'd left the eggs out but the BYM, who'd prepared some for himself this morning, so they would've been safe to restash. Ah well. The gist of the conversation that followed:

Me: Some critter will enjoy them.
Lui: Something ovidiperous.
Me: *rolls eyes*
Lui: It is too a word! Look it up!
Me: *types* Nope.
Lui: Gimme that. Oviparous... ovivorous! See?
Me: *rolls eyes*
Lui: So what would you call a critter that eats its own eggs?
Me: *starts reading aloud choice bits from "Why Some Animals Eat Their Offspring"* ... "filial cannibalism --"
Lui: Yeah!
Me: "... grow up fast or get eaten"
Lui: That oughta be a tattoo.

This entry was originally posted at https://zirconium.dreamwidth.org/147559.html.

inventories

Well. Given the headline-hollerin' weather, I feel like my flight left Philadelphia in the nick of time. A summary of the NJ-DE-PA circuit:

5 trips to the nursing home
1 February Fling (advanced English country dancing)
1 afternoon of waltzing
2 waltz lessons and 1 swing lesson
3 solid Italian meals
2 apples and 2 chocolate muffins purloined from the hotel breakfast buffet
3 bags of coffee purchased as gifts
2 pairs of boots purchased for myself
1 ratty Taiwanese towel finally binned
1 ratty washcloth cut up to wrap around damp toothbrush head
1 poetry submission
assorted lines jotted down and/or typed into my phone, but not expanded-on in time for the deadline in question, but that's OK, because I was stonking TIRED through most of the trip, and I get sparklepoints for choosing safety/sleep over ambition/FOMO
1 dinner plan cancelled because of feeling too dozy on the drive back from NJ. I still have much to learn about realistic scheduling.
50 object labels, 5 wall panels, assorted menu updates, and other projects herded along remotely
1 sparkling peach jelly sake shot + 1 bowl of shanxi cat ear lamb pasta at Suga. They were both REALLY tasty.
an hour+ of good conversation with the friend at Suga, during which I finally confessed that my birthday is in May, not March, but I hadn't said anything before because I'm used to other friends being calendar-challenged (one handed me a very nice bottle of Scotch on my 44th with "this is for all the years I missed...") and in any case what's not to like about celebrating being alive from May 9 through May 8 every year?
1 "Stop Profiling Muslims" sign seen, in the window of Joe Coffee Philly. I promptly went in and ordered a spiced golden mocha.
1 bourbon cocktail at the Oddity Bar
2 hours in Manayunk, where I didn't find any postcards, but I did huff and puff up some hills (can't wait until my wonky ankle regains full strength/reliability. Lungs, too...) after sipping on some Invisible Ink (an IPA) at the Goat's Beard
assorted compliments re the hair (green) and tattoos (glittery) and dancing (I do enjoy being sought out)



I went to bed early last night, and I was so tired that I hadn't remembered about the cut apple or carton of eggs I'd failed to put away. Merde! On the upside, it's a sunny day, so it was less of an ordeal to fling them onto the compost patch than it would've been on a filthier morning. Also on the upside, it was chilly when I got out of bed, so I started my day in a fleece top and a fleece vest, which was like shuffling around in a light nonsmothering cocoon. And I'm now wearing a poet-ninja tee that was a birthday present from another friend -- another light nonsmothering cocoon. :)

As usual, the day has sped by faster than my plans for it. But it remains a fine day. I have defrosted homemade onion soup for lunch (see, ancestors, see? I'm not wasteful -- just absent-minded! This is also how the garlic powder ended up in the fridge...), ordered books for my church library, and moved half of my home library room to other parts of the house (and recycling/resale bins). Progress! Also some laundering and rehearsing and filing and corresponding and wrapping.

Rejections received: 4
Dresses binned: 1 (it was time, ancestors! I paid less than a dollar for it in the first place, and it had become shaggier than a bedraggled sheep...)
Hilarious "nope" exchange of looks with the BYM after trying "savory" Lunar New Year cookies from a relative: 1

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Feb. 26th, 2018

"you do not have to walk on your knees / for a hundred miles"

Today's subject line comes from Mary Oliver's Wild Geese.

The cardboard coffee-cup sleeves in my hotel room exhort, "COOL IT! You can't book a vacation with injured fingers." It took me a minute to realize it was referring to hot beverages, since what's on my mind at the moment is the discerning act (for an assortment of reason, right now the word "balance" is skunked to me*) between what can feel like incessant pressure to Do More vs. self-care vs. making excuses for snaggety things one would rather not (as opposed to cannot) tackle. They wear each other's clothes, and sometimes the people strongly urging that I not sacrifice health and sanity for ambition/achievement are also the ones simultaneously mountainizing molehills in the name of ideals (including the illusory grail of a "balanced" approach/treatment/what-have-you to some of them snaggety things), which in turn gets in the way of me meeting my existing promises.

[* Hadn't read Elizabeth Gilbert on the topic before looking up something else midway through writing this entry, but yeah. What she said there.]

Old George, a dancer I'm fond of, once told me that experienced dancers make tons of mistakes but recover from them better/faster than novices. I'm thinking of how some very successful people in my circles didn't do their part in projects we worked on together, and how irritating that was but also how ultimately irrelevant, but also how I don't want to be that kind of person and that's why I keep saying no on a regular basis to numerous worthy asks, and how several people have told me I'm their hero/inspiration for my ability to do so. I'm thinking of how I know I need to dial back even further when I have to jettison or even cancel existing plans, and when it's a relief when things fall through, and how FOMO, like many other afflictions, is something that hasn't permanently gone away but returns again and again to be dueled with. How my tendency to overplan means that I spent several hours reading up on things I did not have time to pursue in the first place, but it's also how I found the wonderful restaurant where I answered my craving for homemade pasta after a particularly nerve-shredding visit to the nursing home (where a resident with dementia demanded help I could not give, where I was gently reprimanded for wheeling another resident to the dining room [her request, but it turns out she's supposed to wheel herself for PT reasons], and an aide claimed my honorary mama's caregiver had set out only one sock last night and thus not put them on [but said caregiver, who is fan-freaking-tastic, checked the drawer and the socks were together. WTF]).

Where I'm going with this venting? It can be either or both gratifying and uncomfortable when people praise me for all that I get done, because I do pride myself on stubbornness, smarts, and stamina and am pleased when those qualities are recognized, but sometimes the complimenting has the tinge of backhandedery or self-justification, especially when the dialogue essentially filters through as "You're superhuman (or crazy), and I'm not, so I'm going to ask you for this last-minute favor..." I want people to see me as a (re)source, and for my beloveds** in particular to not feel undue constraint about asking me if I would like to help out with a this or that, but I get as pissy as the next diligently boring corn-hauling ant when I feel taken for granted.

[** And, it's probably no accident that my beloveds tend to be people who, being often of cloth or wiring similar to mine, generally don't lightly or habitually make demands of me in the first place.]

I hesitate to post this, since I too can be as bad as the next screenhead when it comes to worrying about whether a subtweet (subpost?) might be about me or if I've effed up Yet Again without realizing it. (The saying of "You know what you did" when angry? Instant friendship-ender, that. I've been called a mind-reader multiple times because of my ability to pay attention and commit key/interesting details to memory, but the label doesn't make it so, and even if my background/values/temperament weren't distinctly atypical, history has shown that I can be spectacularly clueless at times -- which has been true of a number of people in my circles. So.) But I'm hearing/seeing/sensing frustration and exhaustion from multiple corners in reaction to so much Be More! Do More! YOLO! Sleep when you're dead! You haven't given as much as ____! You aren't _____ until you _____! in the air and on the airwaves, and I'm not immune to comparison syndrome myself. (Will I forever feel a pang whenever I find out that yet another friend/acquaintance made Phi Beta Kappa, and feel thoroughly ridiculous for that flash of envy? It hasn't made an iota of difference in my career or love life or health, the fees would have been a significant burden, actually qualified individuals deciding against membership is a recurring thing, not every school has a chapter, etc., blah, blah, OY. [To my credit, I'm not so obsessed that I knew any of those details (except the first) until a few minutes ago, and it doesn't take a psychologist to figure out that right now it's a trigger because Honorary Mama has been proud all her life of being PBK -- her key (and the chain it was on) was one of the pieces of jewelry she made a point of repairing and keeping -- and we're at a juncture in history where honors are rightfully being questioned and analyzed in depth in terms of who awards and receives them and the presence of privilege in the mix. And, on a more personal level, the yearning for and (non)pursuit of prizes and recognition and (not) being chosen is a recurring motif in conversations and reflections, as is the witnessing (and sometimes experiencing) of delusions and cluelessness (I have been that singer/actor at auditions with zero sense of how inadequate I would have been in the parts I coveted, and I have also zipped my lips and sat on my hands when encountering versions of that younger self: it took me long enough to get to a place where I was ready to acknowledge that I wasn't as good as I thought I was, and it's a lesson my avocations are inherently designed to teach me over and over again. I have been blessed with sufficient confidence to send work out again and again -- and also the analytical skills to read something a few months/years/decades later and conclude that I wouldn't have accepted/purchased it either).])

Anyway -- what I sat down to say? Some people do need to be told to sit ass in chair and put in the legendary 10,000 hours before they angle further for attention. I have been that person, and as unready for that admonition as anyone else raised on fairy-godmother-to-the-rescue tales. Some people are better off in the company of kindred spirits looking askance at words that rhyme with "flaweductivity" and coming up with superpowers. I have been that person. Some people alternate slip-slogging through mud and serenely spending hours in a rocking chair by muttering about how none of this will matter in a few hundred years because humanity is heading toward extinction faster than not but for the time being, we (being able) still owe it to God to bake chicken pies and brighten at compliments (especially when the compliments come with tattoos) . . .

chicken hand pies

cards (and tattoos!) from friends

. . . and right now, I am that person. And now I shall half-rush through breakfast and half-ass my makeup and hair and get myself to the places I have promised to be at today, and there will also be pockets of time later today where I shall treat myself to something delicious food- and/or drink- and/or sightseeing/hearing-wise, and linger over it for longer than strictly necessary, and feel gratitude from head to toe for being alive.

This entry was originally posted at https://zirconium.dreamwidth.org/147114.html.

"marked / by a red felt pen / by God"

The subject line's from Gemma Gorga's "It's Late," which will be at Poetry Daily for a year.

I just fixed (after a half-dozen or so sporadic attempts over the past three days) an outer zipper on my suitcase with bar soap and scissors. Go me!

Some of the dances at the February Fling I attended:

  • Ties of Love (a new dance by Jenny Beer [of "Keys to the Cellar" fame] -- "the tune may change, but here's what it is for now" [qfm] -- presented at the dance to David and Carolyn Tilove, who recently moved from Philadelphia to Pittsburgh)


  • Gotham Farewell (a recently choreographed dance by Beverly Francis, who is moving from New York to Ohio)


  • Pharmacist's Pleasure


  • The Introduction (danced with a beautifully precise partner, and oh, they are wonderful, those moments when someone who has just met me realizes, "Oh yes, this one has the timing/flirting down," and the dance blooms because you're both in full connection to each other and the music. And it doesn't hurt my ego to be sought out for dances -- particularly since I regularly and occasionally literally crash back to earth in the course of attempting other forms, including at Mostly Waltz yesterday. Though I also got to whirl through Jonathan Jensen's "Candles in the Dark") with a lovely man, and we did not stop to fix my undone shoelace.


  • The Dusty Miller


  • Autumn in Amherst (the keyboard player = composer of the tune)


  • Quite Carried Away


  • Companions


  • The Way of the World (modern dance by Jenna Simpson)


  • Farmer's Joy (Joseph Pimentel)


  • One couple showed up with elven ears (which went quite well with their finery, and they often look as though they're up to something even without pointy ears...) ... and the ears sprouted on several otherwise generally proper dancers later in the evening. I was reminded of another dancer's observation at an Asheville after-party earlier this month: "English Country Dancing is full of odd ducks, and that is a reason I am drawn to it."

    (During the course of the Princeton evening, I was reminded that ECD does seem to draw a high number of mathematicians and other scientifically minded types -- I forget why Ars Technica came up during the refreshment break, but vaguely recall trajectories and velocities being part of the conversation.)

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    Feb. 24th, 2018

    dazzled at least ten times a day

    The subject line comes from Mary Oliver's Blue Horses, the full line being "It must be a great disappointment to God if we are not dazzled at least ten times a day." Blue Horses was a gift to my honorary mama from one of her actual daughters and her wife, and it came to the rescue yesterday when I was visiting her at the nursing home.

    I don't have much to say about ALS that doesn't involve copious streams of profanity. HM used to talk enough for the both of us, and now I can't even make out when she's saying yes or no, and it's a struggle for her caregivers as well, and she doesn't have the muscle control or strength even to lift her head. But we carried on as best we could yesterday - the Jewish yoga book I brought didn't lend itself to reading aloud as easily as I'd hoped, but the Oliver poems did, so I ended up reading the entire volume to her.

    At any rate, I knew this trip would be challenging from the get-go, and I am adequately equipped in experience, resources, and temperament to deal with said challenges, so meet them we have and shall. My flight left Nashville three hours late, but that meant I could catch up on some work and catch some Olympics on the bar TV. For all her flaws, Ayn Rand did write some things that have resonated and remained with me, one of them her characters' love of cities (aka demonstrations of human mastery), and one thing I have loved about landing in and driving around PA/DE/NJ after nightfall is getting to behold the beauty of so many lights and of ornate factories wreathed in steam.

    Also, the young women at both the rental car counter and the hotel desk were both friendly and competent in spite of it being 3:30 and 4-effing-a.m. respectively when I showed up in their lobbies, and last night a man named Luigi saw me out to my car after my meal at his restaurant; a fashionably scruffy man sauntering by cheerfully bellowed, "Was it good?" -- his words and smile transforming him from possibly-sketchy-guy-on-kinda-sketchy-block to guy-who-lives-in-the-neighborhood-enjoying-the-fact-that-people-stop-in-to-enjoy-Luigi's-cooking.

    There's more to say, but now it is time to don clothes and makeup and head north for more visiting and some dancing.

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    Feb. 19th, 2018

    the drunkenness of things being various

    The subject line's from Louis MacNeice's "Snow." Which we don't actually have here, as it's above 70 F (according to @NashSevereWx, we hit a record-breaking 76 F a couple of hours ago). The temptation is to ignore the must-do list and putter about in the yard, but I would also like to get enough sleep before driving around the northeast later this week, so I'm sipping a glass of Barcelona cava (left over from Saturday's brunch, and still bubbly!) and mopping the floors, retouching my hair, de-skanking a heating grate -- you know, the things one must absolutely get out of the way before buckling down to paperwork and phone calls and the other things that shove aside mopping the floors and retouching my hair most weekdays.

    greens

    Indoors, the largest of the Christmas cacti is magnificently in bloom, and my little quartet of romaine/bok choy stubs supplied leaves for today's salmon salad. There are also new buds on the kalanchoe.

    I've noticed the cardinals out and about today, with two pausing on the fence just outside my window. I look at the cardinals on the holiday address labels sent to me by some charities. My other windows are open, and a couple of yards away, someone is attempting to force notes out of a wind instrument -- possibly a saxophone. I might be shaping some lines in my head about seasonal and boundarial messiness.

    In 2016, J. S. Graustein wrote about trokeens at Folded Word and invited readers to submit them. Last week, unFold published "Lab(orare est orare)" as a video.

    And, at Vary the Line, I posted "Calculations": http://www.varytheline.org/blog/2018/02/18/calculations/

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    Feb. 16th, 2018

    10 facts

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    1. I've lived in my current house since 2000. During the first sixteen years, a yellow rosebush by the side of my driveway would bloom each year. Since I hadn't planted it and it didn't require any care from me, I called it my "rogue rosebush." It was paved over when our new driveway was poured, but last spring I planted a new yellow rosebush in my front yard, and it is doing well.

    2. I like my coffee black and my whisky neat.

    3. I worked for the Mondale/Ferraro campaign in high school, for a civics assignment.

    4. One of my physics classmates threatened to spit on me when she saw my button.

    5. I can be stupid frugal at times, but I did just toss an onion into the compost pail without trying to salvage any part of it. Mind, it was so old that it felt like one of those squishy stress balls handed out at trade shows and corporate seminars.

    6. I made a promise to my mother on her deathbed that I knew I would not keep. (She did not want an obituary published.) This is also the woman who yelled at me for wasting money when I brought the flowers my mother-in-law had asked me to buy.

    7. I will be flying north soon to visit my honorary mama, who turns 89 soon. She is dying from ALS but her mind is intact. There will be champagne.

    8. My honorary big brother and his boyfriend will be coming to my house tomorrow for brunch. We met 31 years ago (a number of significance because he was a Baskin-Robbins boy at the time).

    9. The first time I went ice-skating was at a rink in downtown Chicago.

    10. My household didn't have cable when I was growing up. A friend taped a selection of music videos for me to enjoy, and that's how I first encountered a-ha's "Take on Me" (amused nod at Vincent Zhou).

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    Feb. 15th, 2018

    71 degrees after sunset in February

    Colleague walking me to my car: Someone asked for you today. Did they find you?

    Me: Hmmm, no. Odd.

    Colleague: They seemed nice. Polite.

    Me: Well, some of the people who know me are. And then there's the riff-raff.

    Colleague: Peg, we all know some riff-raff.

    Me: Well, of course we do. Live long enough, you're gonna run into some riff-raff.

    Colleague: Now you're sounding like my pastor.

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    Jan. 28th, 2018

    "love / where the topsoil is not dead"

    Today's subject line comes from Khaya Osborne's When All the Dandelions Have Wilted, the Scratch of Tobacco is So Much Less Damning, via Frontier Poetry's Exceptional Poetry From Around the Web list.

    Signal-boosted by tweeps: Brian Bilston's Refugees and Irene Klepfisz's Perspectives on the Second World War.

    Week in review: Six poems rejected, five images rejected, one new poem drafted and submitted. See previous entry for links to the two now online.

    I logged more than fifty hours at the day job last week, and wasn't good for much by yesterday evening, so instead of going out, I opened a bottle of cava and pan-fried four scallops with a strip of pork belly, with leftover rice and fennel rounding out the meal. Then I divided the rest of the night between song/dance prep and housework.

    There's a line in Philip Gefter's "Place Beyond the Pines" (published online as The Place Beyond the Fire Island Pines, about Columbia County, that particularly resonated with me when I read it in the bath some days ago: "I like to think of the region as a sprawling artists' colony, where everyone is almost pathologically productive, keeping a safe distance from one another in their secluded studios while still wanting to know what everyone is working on."

    Sending you thoughts of both naps and seeds from my secluded studio, my dears.

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    Jan. 24th, 2018

    "You can't help but write more than one at a time"

    Making Africa

    A few weeks ago, I tossed a couple of sandwiches and a half-eaten cucumber into a bag that I took with me on a work trip to Atlanta (the photos in this entry are from the visit to the High Museum). I ate the sandwiches and part of the cucumber. The bag still isn't fully unpacked, but I fished out what remained of the cucumber early last week. Thank goodness for solid ziploc seals.

    It took me most of another week to drag the compost pot to the yard, which encapsulates it being cold, me being sick, and things being hectic. (I added "club soda" to my mental shopping list earlier tonight, and just a few minutes ago noticed the two-liter bottle of club soda I'd brought home last night and completely forgotten about. And -- as if in reproach -- it promptly fizzed all over half the kitchen when I opened it. Some days the comedy is everywhere.)

    Making Africa

    Anyway, some things are getting done, and some new poems are online -- "Lost Wax" over at varytheline.org and a sestina over at the CDC Poetry Project.

    Last month Sidekick Books published an Advent calendar of window poems; mine was on Day 2: http://sidekickbooks.com/booklab/2017/12/sidekick-aperture-poetry-advent-calendar-day-2-peg-duthie.html/.

    Making Africa

    Today's subject line comes from Maxine Silverman's Shiva Moon (published by Ben Yehuda Press, which is bringing out my friend Rachel's Texts to the Holy next month), in a poem titled "A Small Craft Advisory," which I bookmarked earlier this month even though at this point there's nothing subconscious about references to 1930s Germany and 1940s treatment of Japanese Americans bleeding into and all over my drafts and correspondence. Silverman:


    Years back if the S.S. crashed a poem
    at once I'd rub them out. . . .

    Nazis aren't subconscious anything.
    Generations after Auschwitz, they still have their way
    with us, show up when you least expect. That is the poem.
    The rest -- commentary.


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    Jan. 21st, 2018

    when the stamps fit



    Tonight's letters to my senators were about how the money spent on the dictator-in-chief's golf trips could have fed thousands of homeless veterans.

    I just printed a copy of this women's march sign to mail to my honorary mama (language NSFW): https://twitter.com/irishrygirl/status/954865689868816395

    Actions for introverts:
    Postcards To Voters: https://postcardstovoters.org/
    Americans of Conscience: https://goo.gl/3T4hru

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    Jan. 12th, 2018

    "Needing drastic forms of admiration is a virus"

    The subject line's from "Qum," by Tim Dlugos (who, among other things, was called the Frank O'Hara of his generation and had planned to become an Episcopal priest before AIDS killed him). It's the January 12 entry in A Year in Poetry, edited by Thomas E. Foster and Elizabeth C. Guthrie.

    During dinner, I read Mimi O'Donnell's piece in Vogue about her life with Philip Seymour Hoffman, and about how her kids and she are living the loss four years later. The final paragraph:


    This fall, after a long campaign by my kids, I agreed that we could get a family dog. They had their hearts set on a French bulldog, and after some research we found a breeder and picked out a puppy, a girl, whose picture was so cute it was almost insane (and I’m not a dog person). The moment we made the decision, Cooper said, “She’s going to die. Dogs don’t live very long, so we’re going to see her die.” In her birth and in her coming to us, we were also mourning her death. Something about that felt right, knowing that everything you meet or love is going to die. I was in awe of my kids that they were able to hold both things in their heads at the same time. That’s who they are now. And it hasn’t stopped them from loving this little creature (her name is Puddles) scampering around our apartment. None of them wants to hold back. They’ve given their hearts to her, without hesitation or reservation.





    Me, I'm probably another 6-12 months from opening heart and home to a new-to-me dog. My schedule needs to become several degrees less breakneck for me to spend adequate time with any additions to our household, and I'd also like to see through some major repairs while we are pet-less (among other things, a patch of ceiling has been shedding plaster every time someone takes a shower). But I do greatly miss the affection and entertainment our past furballs have provided.

    January 2016 January 2016

    It's currently 59 F in Nashville. (The high yesterday was 69 F.) The temperature is supposed to plummet to 29 F by mid-morning. That is bonkers. Who knows what the roads are going to be like.

    Although it will likely be months before I'm back on the water, I'm dreaming of it:

    January 2016

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